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Daddy, Tell Me I’m Beautiful

Growing up, my household was far from perfect. As a matter of fact, my family fit the category of dysfunctional. My parents experienced certain challenges in the childhood causing them to be a product of their environment.

It wasn’t until I get older that I appreciated, despite my father circumstances due to his upbringing, that he planted a seed of self-assurance within me which I believe helped me throughout my life. My father also encouraged me to honor my feelings, always seemed to understand and relate to my intuition/spiritual experiences, told me that I must tolerate nothing less than respect and wholeheartedly love who I am…Unapologitically me.

Let me take you back…

I remember as a little girl, putting a towel on my head and feeling, in that moment, that I a had beautiful long hair. It felt good. (I know some of you reading this now did the same. It was one of those things that many little brown girls did.)

Although my dad would let me be in that moment, he would gently tell me my hair is thick and beautiful and go on saying that many women wished they had hair like mine.

4 year old Alyscia
This is me when I was 4.

In all honestly, despite my fathers had good intention, I didn’t feel as pretty as he told me. It was difficult seeing myself pretty when I didn’t witness little girls that looked like me on high platforms. Although my father pumped “beautiful” in my head, the media, my classroom and society in general was a impact on my self-esteem.

At the age of 11 and feeling a boost of self-confidence, my Aunty told me something that crumbled my self-love. While transitioning through puberty, and a face full of pimples, she looked me in the middle of my eyes and said, with her distinct Trinidadian accent, “Yuh gettin ugly.” I wrote about it in the introduction of my book, Feminine Transitions.

Though that one statement affected me for a few years, because of my fathers influence I grew out of that perception.

If I had not the significant voice at home to assure me of my beauty, there is no doubt that my journey self-awareness would have been much more challenging.

My fathers words, assuring me that I was beautiful just as I am (speaking completely against any enhancements, including make-up, chemical changes to my hair, and medical alterations) stuck with me, even throughout my adult life.

I clearly remember when I started getting attention from boys, and feeling nonchalant when they complimented me. Of course it felt good and I appreciate it, but in all truth their flattery didn’t phase me. It never went to my head. Why? I already knew it because I’ve been praised for as long as I can remember by the most important male figure in my life…my dad.

Can you imagine the walking confidence of a woman that was always told, by her dad as a little girl, that she is beautiful?

I was that little girl…one of them as I am sure we are many. Unfortunately, our stories are not told. Society tends to get too caught up with what we lack… fatherless daughters and sons…

I pay respect to the fathers doing their job!

(Oprah, I’m feeling this topic on Lifeclass coming. Let’s make it happen.)

I truly believe that if we had more dads telling their daughters (and son’s lets not forget them) they are beautiful just as they are, we will build generations of radiating confidence. Maybe even better relationships as people wouldn’t feel the need to cover up who they really are.

As Michael Baisden said, “Stop introducing your representative and introduce yourself.” That’s well said Michael.

The same goes for mom’s and their daughters. If our children do not hear it from us, they will simply seek approval elsewhere.

The reality is my dad and I do not have the best father daughter relationship. It simply is what it is. Regardless, I give Jack his jacket. He has instilled something within me that is powerful beyond measure. Certainty.

To my dad…thank you!

Me and my dad
Me and my dad in 1995.

Daddy’s…tell your daughter she is beautiful. You will awaken her soul.

Did your daddy tell you that you were beautiful? Is there a difference in a womans’ love for self who grew up with a father as compared to one who did not? To dig a little deeper, when a father often tells his little girl that she is beautiful, does she develop a more positive self-esteem than the little girl who was never told this by her father? Please share your experience.

*Posted originally at The Girl God blog http://thegirlgod.blogspot.com/2014/05/daddy-tell-me-im-beautiful-by-alyscia.html

Oprah’s Advice On Letting Go

“When you’ve worked as hard and done as much and strived and tried and given and pled and bargained and hoped…SURRENDER. When you have done all that you can do and there’s nothing left for you to do… GIVE IT UP. Give it up to that thing that is greater than yourself. And let it then become apart of the flow.”

After a long week and feeling a bit anxious since my return from California, I happened to open my Lifeclass journal and read this quote on the very first page. It’s dated August 29, 2012. Then it came back to me…I was watching Oprah Winfrey speak on OWN TV’s Master Class and I rewind my DVR a few times so I could write her entire quote correctly.

The amazing thing is, although eighteen months has passed since then, it spoke directly to me at the very moment.

Right then I realized I unconsciously wrote this for me to read today.

As beautiful, tough, uplifting, overwhelming, joyous and strenuous as my journey has been… I’ve learned to accept the changing seasons in my life.  The sense of discontentment or sadness is an emotion, not a weakness. Acknowledging your emotions lets you know that you are human.

Since I was a child I taught myself to honor my feelings (enjoying times of solitude), express it (through jounaling), and simply let it go.

Sugarload Mountain Trail in the winter
Sugarload Mountain Trail in the winter

Trail in Harper's Ferry, WV
Harper’s Ferry trail in the Spring.

I am guided not only by an omnipotent Creator and limitless Universe but also protected by very powerful spiritual forces…my ancestors and guides.

I now live in confidence knowing that every step of the way I was directed into the right path to prepare for the positive changes to come. I’m not sure exactly what that change is but I can feel it as strong as the wind.

After searching the video of Oprah’s quote above, I happened to fast forward it to 3:53 and she said…

 

Every single thing that has happened in your life, is preparing you for the moment that is to come.

Is that a direct message from Oprah? You bet it is!

I pray and stay in faith knowing that I am where I am supposed to be. To be quite honest, at times I quietly pray, “Please don’t make the road as bumpy as before.” I can only be honest here.  🙂

Going faithfully in the direction of my dreams.  Do keep me in your prayers.

Peace & blessings,

Alyscia