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Sometimes… it’s hard to be thankful

Amongst all the messages of Thanksgiving and hopeful wishes, I can’t seem to shake off the rejection I’ve recently received. The past few weeks has challenged my thinking and created me to reconsider the direction of my profession as an artist.

Don’t get me wrong…

I am ALWAYS very grateful (my family and I are healthy-what more could I ask for? — well…I could) and have an innate tendency to see the positive side of my experiences. I’m always very determined to accomplish my goals (personal and professionally) and find myself often encouraging others to push past their challenges (I may have missed my calling as a coach?).

But every now and then, the “no’s” get to me.

The 4 big grants I spent much of my time completing was rejected (I just knew I would be awarded at least one). The exhibit I hoped to participate in at the Smithsonian… rejected (still puzzled by that). An Editor at L’Oreal interviewed me to feature a story about my work… cancelled. Vroman’s Bookstore in California, shipped my books back (due to no sales), and others are coming up soon.

And…

I haven’t been able to finish my film, not just due to lack of funding ($30,000 to be exact) but also due to the lack of b-roll. Scheduling additional filming dates hasn’t gone so well due to everyone’s schedule.

On my challenging days, I seek quotes that resonate with me and what I’m going through (I love quotes). In this particular situation, I thought about Oprah’s words on the finale of her show, which I’m sure I’ve shared before).

I’ve talked to nearly 30,000 people on this show, and all 30,000 had one thing in common: They all wanted validation. If I could reach through this television and sit on your sofa or sit on a stool in your kitchen right now, I would tell you that every single person you will ever meet shares that common desire. They want to know: ‘Do you see me? Do you hear me? Does what I say mean anything to you?

In truth, my response is a feeling of unappreciation, which truly boils down to feeling a lack of validation. I’m fully aware that I will receive more rejection than acceptance in anything, but at times it’s hard… and exhausting.

And I honestly needed the time to simply slow down a bit, vent about what I’m feeling and give myself the time to grief (Is that an appropriate word? It’s as close to a word as I can come up with at the moment) and rest.

Ipray4u-laugh.jpgSo on this day of Thanksgiving, I must admit, sometimes being completely thankful is hard but even in the moments of disappointment, there’s so much to be thankful about. Not only am I in the best of health but I’m grateful to come home to an amazing family every day. As always I get up, adjust myself and keep going.

What are your challenges and what are you thankful for?

Enjoy the Holiday!

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Oprah’s Advice On Letting Go

“When you’ve worked as hard and done as much and strived and tried and given and pled and bargained and hoped…SURRENDER. When you have done all that you can do and there’s nothing left for you to do… GIVE IT UP. Give it up to that thing that is greater than yourself. And let it then become apart of the flow.”

After a long week and feeling a bit anxious since my return from California, I happened to open my Lifeclass journal and read this quote on the very first page. It’s dated August 29, 2012. Then it came back to me…I was watching Oprah Winfrey speak on OWN TV’s Master Class and I rewind my DVR a few times so I could write her entire quote correctly.

The amazing thing is, although eighteen months has passed since then, it spoke directly to me at the very moment.

Right then I realized I unconsciously wrote this for me to read today.

As beautiful, tough, uplifting, overwhelming, joyous and strenuous as my journey has been… I’ve learned to accept the changing seasons in my life.  The sense of discontentment or sadness is an emotion, not a weakness. Acknowledging your emotions lets you know that you are human.

Since I was a child I taught myself to honor my feelings (enjoying times of solitude), express it (through jounaling), and simply let it go.

Sugarload Mountain Trail in the winter
Sugarload Mountain Trail in the winter
Trail in Harper's Ferry, WV
Harper’s Ferry trail in the Spring.

I am guided not only by an omnipotent Creator and limitless Universe but also protected by very powerful spiritual forces…my ancestors and guides.

I now live in confidence knowing that every step of the way I was directed into the right path to prepare for the positive changes to come. I’m not sure exactly what that change is but I can feel it as strong as the wind.

After searching the video of Oprah’s quote above, I happened to fast forward it to 3:53 and she said…

 

Every single thing that has happened in your life, is preparing you for the moment that is to come.

Is that a direct message from Oprah? You bet it is!

I pray and stay in faith knowing that I am where I am supposed to be. To be quite honest, at times I quietly pray, “Please don’t make the road as bumpy as before.” I can only be honest here.  🙂

Going faithfully in the direction of my dreams.  Do keep me in your prayers.

Peace & blessings,

Alyscia